So if you did not watch the video and do the test here it is again!
So here is my story: I was walking along and came upon a big wooden cube. It was as tall as I am and firmly on the ground. The wood was a deep and lovely brown, with the grain of the wood prominent It was finely polished, yet a touch of age to it. There was a ladder leaning against the cube, as if to say climb me and sit on top. A chestnut brown horse was circling around, nothing on his back, and while free to go, chose to stay and enjoy the space. As I was sitting on top of this pretty cube, I saw a field of flowers, too many to count. Each different as, wild flowers generally are.
There was a storm in the distance, but I was not afraid, I know my horse and I could move swiftly to shelter if needed, who knows, maybe this cube has a door.
I wrote my answers down as I was listening to the quiz, I knew I would not remember my answers and when I listened to the meaning behind each aspect of the test, I realized that it was right on the money,
***Spoiler**** do not read, if you have not taken the quiz yet
So I do have a rather sizable ego, but considering that I am an only child and one who knows their place in the world (I am an Indigo) is it really surprising? I think the fact that it was the same size as me speaks to the fact that I know myself and have not let my ego get bigger than myself.
The ladder is leaning on me, and my friends and relations knows that they can lean on me too. What was your ladder doing? If my block was small the ladder would have nothing to lean on. My ego is confidence, I make no apologies, if it weren't for the size of my ego, what would they have to lean on? Think about that, if you are so small in your own eyes, what do you have to offer to others? Nothing, for you will believe that you have nothing to give. We demonize the ego, when in reality it can keep us moving forward, dream the big dreams and eventually think outside ourselves!
The horse, he was running free, but not wild. This is how I am in my relationships. For better or worse, I let them run their course, and the ones who strayed I let go completely. As a Taurus I am all about loyalty, but if it is loyalty with chains attached, then what good is it. Loyalty out of respect and love like the horse in my story, is the only kind that I want. It is like asking for a present, if you have to ask, it has lost some of its meaning.
The flowers everywhere, this was funny and the most true of all. The flowers symbolize the amount of children you want to have, now in reality this is one or two. But the fact that I saw more than I could count speaks to the fact that I have worked with thousands of children in my lifetime. Even in my hand analysis with JoAnn Manzella, I am not only a healer of healers, but a teacher. Right there in my hands it says it all. I have many children, I just did not give birth to them.
The storm, absolutely speaks of where I am right now. I am at peace. Here we are six months into the 30 day challenges and I know most of you have stopped doing them with me, but I have not given up. I will say the sleep one was a disaster, but this month has seen big personal change for me. I have cleaned and cleaned this month in a way that I have been wanting to do for years. These months, have shaken me out of the sleep I was in and launched me into enormous changes not only now, but in the future.
These changes are what has brought me this peace amongst the storm. I welcome the rain and the wind and the brilliant change it brings. I shake loose the old sorrows and release the Kraken of my emotions into the wild of it all. I allow my feet to walk on the unsteady ground of change and wish none of what I have lost in the process back. So while some of the challenges were failed, some modified, they have served and are serving their purpose, to help me shake up my life and make the big changes.
By focusing on the small ones, I allowed my life to bring in the bigger ones. I have a long way to go. And I welcome more.
One of the changes that you have seen was slowly bringing in healthier eating. I even started a new blog! https://fatgirlcookingthinblog.wordpress.com/ Other changes:
- A much cleaner home
- I found a wonderful channel to collaborate on YouTube with
- I am taking steps to be officially certified as a life coach
- Wonderful new people are presenting and working in my center
- My private sessions have been booking up
- I am making more time for myself
These are just a few of the ways that my life has been improved by taking these 30 day Challenges.
Challenge for June:
Write every day for 30 minutes
- Stream of conscious
However you write, allow it to help you open up to your inner needs and thoughts!
I hope you enjoyed this very long winded blog today! If you get a chance check out my friends post on Inorganic skies http://www.evolveandascend.com/2016/05/13/inorganic-skies-thrive-chemical-world/